<strong>mrt bl'ms dhkr~ lywbyl lfDy lHdth kn fy wqth mHl trHyb l`lm b'srh; `l~ `tbr 'nh ymthl `lm@ brz@ fy tTwy` ldblwmsy@ ldwly@ s`yan ltHqyq marb lslm.wn tsltm m ldhy ntHdth `nh, fl d`y llqlq. lqlyl mn lns blf`l ydhkrwn hdh lHdth, wl'kthry@ ttZhr b`dm tdhkrh. nn ntHdth `m kn ysm~ btfqt 'wslw llslm lty SyGt byn sry'yl wmnZm@ ltHryr lflsTyny@ wz`ymh lrHl ysr `rft `br lmfwDt lsry@ lty shhdth l`Sm@ lnrwyjy@ fy tlk l'thn.wfy dhlk lwqt, `tbr ltfq bmthb@ lHl l'mthl, hkdh qyl, llmshkl@ lflsTyny@ lty knt tTrd mnTq@ lshrq l'wsT wtwld lkthyr mn lmshklt, w'`ml l`nf, wlkthyr mn lHrwb `l~ md~ `qwd. wknt Hl@ lthr@ lty khlqh dhlk ltfq `myq@ ldrj@ 'nh b`d mrwr 'sby` `d@ `lyh 'sfr `n mnH jy'z@ nwbl llslm llthlthy lsysy ldhy <> fy lmqm l'wl: lz`ymn lsry'ylyn sHq rbyn wshm`wn byrys, wz`ym mnZm@ ltHryr lflsTyny@ ysr `rft.wmndh lbdy@, knt lTby`@ lHqyqy@ lhdh ltfq m sry@ bSf@ jzy'y@ 'w mkhtlq@ bm yfwq Hdwd lHwr ldblwmsy lm`ny. wz`m ljnb lflsTyny, wmn yw'ydh fy lGrb, 'n <<'wslw>>, km bt m`rwfan `n dhlk ltfq fy l'wsT l`lmy@ khtSran, hw bmthb@ lkhTw@ l'wl~ `l~ msr qm@ ldwl@ lflsTyny@ lmstql@. wlqd tkhyrw tjhl tSryHt sHq rbyn lmtkrr@ bsh'n lkyn lflsTyny l'dn~ mn mstw~ ldwl@ lqwmy@ ldhy swf yshrf bSwr@ mstql@ `l~ dr@ Hy@ lmwTnyn lflsTynyyn lkhD`yn lslTnh.wHt~ shm`wn byrys nfsh, ldhy Hd tfkyrh lsysy `n lrzn@ wlmnTq m`tbran 'nh ymknh, bm`wn@ ysr `rft, khlq <> lmf`m blslm wlzdhr wlrkh, fy nskh@ jdyd@ wshdyd@ ltDlyl mn 'TrwH@ tywdwr hrtzl lm`nwn@ <>, lm ynbs bbnt shf@ Hwl Hl ldwltyn lmtjwrtyn, wnm stb`d tmman fkr@ ldwl@ lflsTyny@ lkhlS@; wbdlan mnh, rwWj lfkr@ ldwl@ l'rdny@ - lflsTyny@, tlk lfkr@ lty Hwl jhdan tswyqh l~ l'myrkyyn wlmSryyn fy tlk l'thn mn dwn njH yudhkr.km kn hnk khd` wDH `l~ ljnb lakhr mn lTyf.ffy mw'tmr SHfy `uqd fy 'wy'l `m 1988, kn ysr `rft qd t`hd bl`trf bHq sry'yl fy lwjwd kdwl@. wb`d nqD <<'wslw>>, wrGm kl shy, lm ytkhdh mn khTwt tudhkr ltrjm@ hdh lw`d l~ wq` sysy mlmws. wblnsb@ l'wly'k ldhyn qmw bzyrth mhny'yn fy '`qb twlyh mnSb ry'ys lslT@ lflsTyny@, `wd `rft l`zf `l~ nGmth lqdym@ bldwl@ lflsTyny@ lty tmtd <>.w'`rb `rft `n r'yh fy <<'wslw>> bmnth~ lwDwH; dh wSf l`mly@ b'nh mrHl@ `br@ fy Hml@ Twyl@ l'md thdf l~ lqD `l~ sry'yl. wm` tzyd lDGwT `lyh, kn ydf` b'nh DTr l~ qbwl qrr mjls l'mn ldwly rqm 242 lSdr `n mnZm@ l'mm lmtHd@ ldhy ywSy bjr mHdtht lslm byn sry'yl wldwl l`rby@ lmjwr@ bGy@ tswy@ lnz`t lqlymy@ wHll lslm.wfy lwqt ldhy 'myT fyh llthm `n tfq 'wslw tsl lb`D `n l'sbb lkhfy@ wr brmh fy lmqm l'wl. wkn lsbb l'wl ldhy jl blkhTr yqwl n `mly@ <<'wslw>> knt mSmm@ bl'ss lHfZ m wjh ysr `rft wnqdhh mn <> fqdn lqym@ wl'hmy@. flqd fqd `rft qdran hy'lan mn lmSdqy@ ld~ lbldn l`rby@ wlslmy@ 'wl l'mr Hl nHyzh lGryb l~ mlly Thrn fy thwrthm `m 1979, thm mr@ 'khr~ `br t'yydh Gzw lkwyt `l~ 'ydy Sdm Hsyn wqwth l`skry@. w`n~ ysr `rft mn m`Dlt mly@ jm@ m` tjff mnb` l'mwl lty kn ytlqh mn nZm Sdm Hsyn jr l`qwbt ldwly@ lmfrwD@ `l~ bGdd `tbran mn `m 1991. wmn dwn ld`m ldblwmsy wfy Gyb ltdfqt lmly@, lm ykn `rft ymthl 'kthr mn shkhSy@ bht@ lt'thyr wD`yf@ lnfwdh yqb` sknan fy twns.wlqd tsr`t khTwth lmnzlq@ l~ lq` lsysy m` n`qd mw'tmr mdryd llslm fy `m 1991, wfy dhlk lmw'tmr tqdm lflsTynywn lHqyqywn, 'y 'wly'k ldhyn y`yshwn fy lDf@ lGrby@ wqT` Gz@, bqyd@ bdyl@ tmthlhm sr`n m Hzt lHtrm wltqdyr `br mkhtlf 'rj l`lm.w`l~ l`ks mn ysr `rft, ldhy shthr dwlyan bmylh llmmrst l`nyf@, bm fy dhlk mHwlt Grq lbnn fy atwn lHrb l'hly@, nhykm `n dhkr '`ml lrhb lty tfwq lHSr fym yrbw `l~ 12 dwl@, kn lwfd lflsTyny fy mw'tmr mdryd llslm qd 'thbt qdran m`tbran wmHtrman mn lt`ql wlt`Tf; dh bd kl mn Hydr `bd lshfy, wHnn `shrwy, wfySl lHsyny, ldhyn Zlw bldkhl, k'ns yrGbwn Hqan fy lslm thr lm`n@ wlmasy lty jrbwh wkhbrwh b'nfshm wfy Hythm lshkhSy@.wmn thm, ykwn 'Hd l'hdf Gyr lm`ln@ ltfq <<'wslw>> hw lHT mn sh'n <> mdryd ljdyd@, thm `d@ frD shkhSy@ `rft `l~ wjh@ l'Hdth lttSdr mlf <> mn jdyd.wmn byn l'sbb l'khr~ Gyr lm`ln@ ltlk l`mly@ khfq <> mn lqyd@ lsry'yly@ fy `tbr mknt lslm m` swry fy lwqt ldhy qdhft fyh lwlyt lmtHd@ bSdm Hsyn wqwth khrj lkwyt tmman, wrskht 'rkn wjwdh fy lmnTq@ Hkman yqDy fy l'mwr wlshw'wn kf@.wfy tlk l'thn, 'rhf b`Dn 'sm`h l'Sd lshrt lkhfy@ lty b`th bh lry'ys lswry HfZ l'sd lsry'yl bsh'n w`wd lslm, lys fqT m` swry, wnm m` lbnn ldhy kn yrzH tHt nyr Htllh fy dhlk lwqt. whnk 'dl@ tfyd b'n sHq rbyn kn ymyl lshy lqlyl l~ lmsh`r lswry@. wm` dhlk, ybdw 'n b`Dhm dkhl lqyd@ lsry'yly@ qd 'Hsw b'n ltnzl wlw `n nzr ysyr mn mrtf`t ljwln lmHtl@ kn 'mran mHfwfan bmkhTr jm@ fy lwqt nfsh ldhy yumnH fyh l`rft mwTy' qdm dkhl lDf@ lGrby@ ky ystHyl sjnan yS`b lfkk mnh bmrwr lwqt.w`nd tkhyr lTryq l~ 'wslw tjhlt lqyd@ lsry'yly@ 'Hd 'hm ldrws lmstfd@ mn tjrb dyfyd bn Gwrywn, l'b lmw'ss lldwl@ l`bry@, ldhy shdd `l~ 'n Hl <> yjb w'n ybd' 'wlan blslm m` ljyrn l`rb; l'nh fy Gyb hdh lslm, km ql bn Gwrywn, ymkn l'y dwl@ `rby@ 'n ttl`b blflsTynyyn ltHqyq Gyth lkhS@.wlm ttSwr `mly@ 'wslw mjrd qm@ ldwl@ lflsTyny@ fHsb, wnm qd 'rj't l`ln `nh l'jl Gyr msm~ kdhlk. wlwq` 'n l`mly@ qd khlqt wD`an rhnan jdydan fy lmnTq@ sh`r fyh 'SHb lml wlslH mn ljnb lflsTyny blrtyH fy lwqt ldhy tsn~ fyh lljnb lsry'yly tfdy mjrd ltfkyr wtSwr afq b`yd@ lmd~ lwD` Gyr mstqr `l~ lTlq.wmn lmfrqt lskhr@, 'n fkr@ ldwltyn qd tHwlt l~ fkr@ 'rhqh lbtdhl wltkrr, wl sym blnsb@ l'y shkhS tnfd ldyh l'fkr bsh'n kyfy@ lt`ml m` m wSfh twny blyr dht mr@ bqwlh <<'S`b mshkl@ fy l`lm>>. wmndh 'wslw, m` stthn sHq rbyn, kn jmy` rw's lwzr lsry'ylyyn, wn`ny shm`wn byrys, wyhwd brk, waryyl shrwn, wyhwd 'wlmrt, wbnymyn ntnyhw, qd 'ydw SyG@ <>. Gyr 'n ljnb lrsmy lflsTyny kn qd tkhdh mwqfan mf`man blGmwD bsh'n lms'l@ nfsh, wfym yt`lq bHrk@ <>, kn lmwqf `dy'yan llfkr@ dhth. wlmr@ lwHyd@ lty qtrbt lslT@ lflsTyny@ lrsmy@ fyh mn tbny SyG@ <> 'ssan Hqyqyan lstrtyjyth lsysy@ Hyl sry'yl knt bn twly slm fyD ry'sth.Ht~ wn lm ykn 'Hd y`tqd 'n `mly@ 'wslw qd wldt mjhD@ fy mhdh, fyjb 'n ykwn wDHan lan 'n tlk lkhT@ 'w l`mly@ 'w ltfq qd Srt fy `dd l'mwt.wb`d mrwr rb` qrn mn lzmn, Sr ldyn wD` rhn wmstmr, wn kn yb`d kl lb`d `n lmthly@ lmnshwd@, l 'nh yHml qdran m`tbran mn lstqrr, wb`Dan mn wmyD l'ml fy Sfq@ jdyd@ t`d lh l`d@ lwlyt lmtHd@. wfy klt lHltyn, w`l~ lnqyD tmman mn ltSwrt ldhy'`@ fy kl mkn, fn lsh`b lflsTyny, lD`yf wlmnhk wlmnqsm `l~ nfsh byn m <> wm <>, hw man tq` `l~ `tqh msw'wly@ lkhtyr l'khyr.</strong>