فيلم "القداس الأسود": ما بين الواقع والخيال

hl ySwWr lfylm lmthyr "lqds l'swd", ldhy ytnwl `lm l`Sbt ljrmy@ wyqwm bbTwlth jwny dyb, hdh l`lm `l~ nHw dqyq bHq? ykshf ln jwrj 'nstzy, whw SHfy dhw sm`@ 'sTwry@ fy mjl tGTy@ 'khbr ljrym@, wstuhdifa shkhSy dht mr@ mn qbl Hd~ l`Sbt, Hqyq@ hdh l'mr.
rGm 'nh mn lmw'kd 'nh syjry mqrn@ fylm "blk ms" (lqds l'swd) b'flm mthl "Gad fdhr" (l'b lrwHy) 'w "Gwd fyluz" (l'Sdq lTybwn), fn fylm jwny dyb ljdyd ymkn 'n yshkl fy'@ qy'm@ bdhth fym yt`lq bl'flm lty ttnwl `lm ljrym@.
fhw `ml drmy ytsm bltrkyz `l~ shkhSy@ mHwry@ shryr@, wtkhym `lyh 'jw lkab@ wlshr. w`l~ lrGm mn lHdyth lmstfyD fy thny l`ml `n lwl wlshrf - km Hdth mn qbl fy fylmyW (l'b lrwHy) w(l'Sdq lTybwn); fn (lqds l'swd) l yHfl bhdhh l'mwr `l~ lTlq, dh 'nh fy lwq` ymthl qS@ Hfl@ bwqy'` lGw wlkhyn@.
wbrGm 'n dhlk l yj`lh 'fDl mn hdhyn lfylmyn lldhyn syuqrn bhm, wlldhyn y`tbrn mn l'`ml lklsyky@ lty tnwlt `lm ljrym@, fnh ykswh bTb` 'kthr wq`y@ mnhm.
wqd HrS lmkhrj skwt kwbr `l~ 'n tkwn 'Hdth fylmh 'qrb m tkwn l~ m wrd fy lktb ldhy stuwHy l`ml mnh.
wyHml lktb `nwn "lqds l'swd: wyty bwljr, /f by ay/ wSfq@ lshyTn", wktbh lSHfyn l`mln fy SHyf@ "bwsTn Glwb" dyk lir wGyrrd 'wnyl, wyunZr lyh `l~ 'nh l`ml l'fDl bmrHl byn kl m ktb `n Hy@ jyms (wyty) bwljr, why '`ml zd `ddh `n l`shr@.
wtnwlt hdhh lmw'lft Hy@ bwljr, `Dw fy `Sb@ bmdyn@ bwsTn l'mryky@, stGl `mlh mkhbr lHsb mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly (f by ay) llflt - Hrfy - mn jrym@ qtl rtkbh, wnGms fy tjr@ lmkhdrt wthryb lslH wlbtzz wlqrD bfwy'd bhZ@ llGy@.
wb`tbry SHfy `kf `l~ tGTy@ 'nshT@ `Sbt ljrym@ lmnZm@ fy fyldlfy wnywywrk wnywjyrsy `l~ md~ 'kthr mn thlth@ `qwd, fqd tb`t mn b`yd fSwl qS@ bwljr why ttwl~ `l~ msrH lHy@.
wm t`lmth `l~ mr lsnyn, wm ynqlh lfylm lmshhdyh `l~ 'kml wjh, hw 'nh m mn wjwd lqymin mthl lshrf 'w lwl fy `lm l`Sbt wljrym@. bdl mn dhlk, yswd ljsh` wlGdr. fqd kn bwljr 'stdh fy ltl`b wlmnwrt, wmryD nfsy dh jdhby@ shkhSy@, jsd jwny dyb dwrh bbr`@ kml@ fy lfylm. Hyth njH dyb fy tjsyd lSwr@ lty kn `lyh `nSr l`Sbt ljrmy@ fy 'wkhr lqrn l`shryn.
l'kthr mn dhlk, 'n mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly l'mryky kn shryk l"bwljr" fy jry'mh bkl rD wqbwl.
fqd wfr mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly lHmy@ l"bwljr" mn l'jhz@ l'mny@ l'khr~ lty knt tjry tHryt wtHqyqt bsh'nh, wdhlk l'n lmktb kn yst`yn blm`lwmt lty yHSl `lyh mn hdh lrjl wmn 'brz m`wnyh styfn flamy lmulqb b"ryfl mn" (rjl lbndqy@), lstkhdmh fy lmlHq@ lqDy'y@ l'frd `Sb@ mfy knt tHml sm (nyw nGlnd), wkdhlk ltmkn mn lHSwl `l~ 'Hkm qDy'y@ Dd 'frdh mm 'd~ l~ lqD `lyh fy nhy@ lmTf.
lmfrq@ 'n l`Sb@ lty kn yqwdh bwljr, wlty knt tHml sm "`Sb@ wyntr hyl" nsb@ lHy fy bwsTn, knt jhz@ bl wtwq@ lml lfrG lnjm `m 'sfrt `nh lmlHqt wlmHkmt lty jrt l'frd l`Sb@ l'khr~.
l`bwr l~ ljnb lmZlm
wqd tsm lfylm bdq@ shdyd@ fy tSwyr l`lq@ lty jm`t byn bwljr w`myl mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly lTmwH jwn kwnwly (ldhy jsd dwrh lmmthl jwyl 'dGirtwn). f"kwnwly" lqdm mn Hy "swth bwsTn", ldhy j mnh bwljr 'yD wldhy ytshkl 'Glb sknh mn 'mrykyyn mn 'Sl ayrlndy yntmwn llTbq@ l`ml@ - ysh`r blrhb@ mn lrjl ldhy yuftrD 'nh ytwl~ mhm@ ltHkm fyh wtshGylh.
bl nh sr`n m bt Sry` ftn@ wsHr shkhSy@ bwljr, ly`qr lshrb m`h, wytqsmn my'd@ l`sh 'kthr mn mr@, wytbdln lhdy, why klh tfSyl mt'nq@ shklt dy'm jz mn dhk lGw ldhy ybr` fyh bwljr.
wlkn fy lwqt ldhy SwWr fyh lfylm bdq@ Tby`@ shkhSy@ kwnwly mn Hyth kwnh `myl mrq fsd, fnh lm yuHml (f by ay) nfsh lmsw'wly@ `n lnhj ldhy tbnh hdh ljhz l'mny fy nfdh lqnwn, wldhy tmthl fy 'n lGyt tbrr lwsy'l, dhlk lnhj ldhy sumH lh blzdhr; klm kn lhdf hw mlHq@ `Sbt lmfy l'mryky@.
wymkn 'n nDrb hn mthl yt`lq bm jr~ fy 'wkhr ts`ynyt lqrn lmDy, `ndm 'brm jhz (f by ay) Sfq@ m` rlf ntly; ldhy kn wqtdhk z`ym lHd~ l`Sbt.
frGm 'n mhm@ ntly kshhd thbt lSlH ld` 'mm lmHkm@ munyt bfshl tm, fn mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly kn mGrm bfkr@ qdrth `l~ tjnyd z`ym `Sb@ ll`ml lHsbh wj`lh ynqlb `l~ zmly'h lqdm~, wlm ykbd lmktb nfsh kthyr mn l`n lltHqq mn SH@ lm`lwmt lty kn yHSl `lyh mn dhlk lrjl.
wm` 'n "lqds l'swd" lm ybry' (f by ay) tmm mn lmsw'wly@; fnh ktf~ blshr@ l~ lmshkl@ lmrkzy@ lty s`~ lir w'wnyl jhdyWn lshrHh wtwDyHh lqr ktbhm, 'l why 'n "nkb@ bwljr" lyst l jz mn mshkl@ mnhjy@ y`ny mnh mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly l'mryky.
wttmthl tlk lmshkl@ fy ljw `mly'h l~ khtSr ljrt wtb` Trq mkhtSr@ wtjhl lqw`d lwjb mr`th, dh m kn dhlk syfDy lHrz lnSr fy qDy@ ywjh fyh lmktb lmfy l'mryky@ mrhwb@ ljnb.
wfy `m 1999, ntqd lqDy lfydrly fy mdyn@ bwsTn mrk l wwlf, ldhy nqb fy khby wtfSyl 'nshT@ (f by ay) `l~ khlfy@ lnhj ldhy tb`h fy lt`ml m` qDy@ bwljr, lqrr ldhy tkhdh mn l'ss bbrm Sfq@ m` hdh lrjl wms`dh flamy.
thm hjm lmktb lmHwlth khf m bdr mn `mly'h mn sw tSrf. wfy Hkmh fy lqDy@, stshhd wwlf bm ktbh lmw'rkh lbryTny llwrd 'ktwn fy `m 1861 mn 'n " lnHTT yaSimu kl m yjry fy lkhf; Ht~ wn kn qm@ l`dl". wql lqDy fy dhlk lwqt n "hdhh lqDy@ tZhr 'nh ('ktwn) kn `l~ Hq".
lt`ml m` lshyTn
wlkn hdh lthm lmryr l(f by ay) kkl lys jz mn lfylm, rGm 'n ltSrft lshy'n@ lty 'qdm `lyh kwnwly w`myl akhr zmyl lh yd`~ mwrys, shklt bwDwH lqw~ lmHrk@ l'Hdth l`ml.
wlkn lfylm 'wl~ htmm 'kbr bkthyr lm HSl `lyh mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly l'mryky ntyj@ llt`wn m` bwljr, wdhlk `l~ Grr m Hdth fy lktb ldhy stuwHy mnh l`ml.
ffy Tr 'Hdth lfylm, yqwl kwnwly lmwrys `ndm bd' l'khyr yshkk fy jdw~ wSH@ lt`wn m` bwljr: "lqd 'khrjn lmfy mn lHlb@. lw lm ykn dhlk 'mr jyd fm ldhy ymkn 'n ykwn kdhlk dhan".
wlkn mn lmmkn lmHjj@ blqwl n lmfy l'mryky@ knt fy dhlk lwqt qd btt blf`l `l~ Tryq lDmHll wltlshy, wn lm`lwmt lty qdmh bwljr lm ykn lh nf` ydhkr.
wfy hdh lsyq, ymkn ln dhkr 'n kwnwly nsb l"bwljr" - fy tqryr rf`h lrw'sy'h `ndm kn msw'wl `n tshGylh - lfDl fy twfyr m`lwmt wfh bh fy lHqyq@ mkhbrwn akhrwn, wdhlk lt`zyz qym@ hdh lmkhbr b`tbrh 'Hd "'Swlh lmdy@" lthmyn@.
wm` 'n tSwyr l'Hdth fy lfylm ytmsh~ bdq@ m` lmsr ldhy rusm lh bbr`@ shdyd@ fy lktb; fn dhlk lm yHdth Tyl@ lwqt. bjnb dhlk, hnk mshhd yuZhr bwljr whw ykshf lms`dh flamy llmr@ l'wl~ 'nh 'qm `lq@ `ml m` (f by ay).
frGm 'n lfylm yuZhr flamy wqd bd mSdwm ldhlk, fn lwq` yfyd b'nh kn y`ml mkhbr lHsb mktb ltHqyqt lfydrly Ht~ qbl 'n yqrr bwljr lt`wn m` lmktb.
`lw@ `l~ dhlk, thm@ mshhd yhr` fyh kwnwly ltHdhyr bwljr mn 'n mkhbr 'khr yumidu lslTt bm`lwmt `nh, whw 'mr Hdth fy kthyr mn l'Hyn blmnsb@, whw m qd kwnwly l'n yuzj bh wr lqDbn Hyth yqDy Hly `qwb@ blsjn lmd@ 40 sn@, ldnth btqdym m`lwmt lbwljr 'dt lHdwth jrym@ qtl wHd@ `l~ l'ql.
`l~ 'y Hl, fy hdh lmshhd ybdr kwnwly wyty bwljr blHdyth fy wsT lTryq wfy khDm st`rD lHtfl bywm lqdys btryk 'mm my't mn lnZr@ wfy HDwr thnyn mn kbr m`wny bwljr fy l`Sb@.
whn yt`yn lqwl, nh m mn `myl y`ml ld~ 'yin mn 'jhz@ l'mn ymkn lh 'n yqtrb mn mkhbr sry rfy` lmstw~ yt`ml m`h fy wDH lnhr hkdh, wfy Zl Zrwf mthl hdhh.
wymkn ln hn lstshhd btjrb@ rwn brfyty, whw 'Hd rjl `Sbt fyldlfy. wkn brfyty y`ml mkhbr mt`wn m` (f by ay) lmd@ `myn tqryb, Zl khllhm yrtdy jhz lktrwny yHdd mwq`h wynql m yjryh mn mHdtht l~ mshGlyh.
fqd kn hdh lrjl dy'm m yqSd l'mkn lny'y@ lm`zwl@ lkhly@ mn lmr@ llltq bmshGlyh ltslym 'shrT@ ltsjyl lty ttDmn lmHdtht lty jr~ ltnSt `lyh lHsbhm. wfy ywm m, wSf ly brfyty Hyth whw yrtdy 'jhz@ lrSd wltnSt tlk blqwl: "knt l`b@ qT wf'r. 'Hbbt kl dqyq@ `shth khllh".
`l~ 'y Hl tjdr lshr@ l~ mHdwdy@ l`thrt lty shbt lfylm. fltqnyt lsynmy'y@ lty lj' lyh Sn`h, lDbT wt`zyz tmsk qS@ surdt `l~ md~ 'kthr mn 300 SfH@ wkn mn lmmkn 'n yqwd tnwlh bshkl akhr lntj `ml synmy'y ttrwH mdth m byn 'rb` 'w khms s`t, 'dt l~ 'l yGfl lfylm 'yan mn 'Hdth hdhh lqS@.
rGm dhlk, fm njH fyh lfylm fy nhy@ lmTf hw twDyH Hqyq@ bsyT@ brzt 'mmy mrr wtkrr khll tGTyty 'khbr `lm ljrym@ lmnZm@, 'l why 'nh l ywjd 'khyr fy Glb l'Hyn. w'n l'mr blnsb@ l`ml (f by ay) wmmthly ld` lfydrly fy lwlyt lmtHd@, lys l l`b@ yktsy Hrz lnSr fyh fy b`D l'Hyn b'hmy@ tfwq tlk lty tuwl~ lHqq lHq wqm@ l`dl.